Monday, October 6, 2014
What comes up here in the office a lot is how changing the direction of our inner world can not only bring us more ease, more clarity, more satisfaction, but it is also a way of being of service to the world around us. It's a win win.
So it seems that one good way to change the wind and sail in a different direction both internally and externally is by upping the use of gratitude. Yes, we know that focusing on what we "yes" have can offset our pain a bit and help us not feel so deprived and stuck. We know that it does not erase our hurts, but it can pave the way to new thoughts and better feelings. But...
Several new studies out are now confirming that actually saying "Thank You" to others - even - and maybe especially for the "little" things - like taking out the garbage, holding the door open, making dinner, remembering to call can make a big impact. Seems like the words themselves make a difference. In the worthy discussion of whether we should act ourselves into thinking or think ourselves into action in order to feel better and have better, saying thank you is on the simple side.
Apparently, saying thank you brings in more money, improves work performance, improves cooperation, brings reciprocity, and creates good feelings in both the speaker and the receiver. We know this, but now more science is backing us up and common sense is not so common so we have to keep saying it.
It's not always easy of course. If there is a brick wall of resentment or old hurts or disappointments between you and the world or you and a particular person, it's harder to do. We may not feel like it. We may not want to, think we should or should have to. But it's a small action. Nothing grand, but words do make a difference and not just to the person we say them to. Our words shape us, they shape our inner and outer worlds. Instead of waiting for the wind to change, we can put good vibes out - they will come back to us. I'm not saying that things will magically change, nor should we ignore our feelings, of course, but when we don't know where to start, two small words can be one small step. They will help take down the bricks.
Thank you for reading.
Monday, September 8, 2014
So this couple that I read about, who had not been speaking to each other for a year or so, and had not had sex in as long or longer, started to get active in helping others. First the wife, in her emotional pain and deep loneliness, decided one day that if she could not fix her own life, and since she was suffering so much, she could at least bring some comfort to someone else. It would give her a purpose somehow. So she made some sandwiches and got some bottled water and set out to downtown in her city and handed them out to some folks who looked like they could use them.
She was well received by most, and so decided she'd do it again. And then again. And soon she was doing it more and more. And her husband saw and he was quiet. But then one day he offered to help her carry some things. And she somehow decided to let him. And then somehow, slowly he started to help more and then more. And somehow, they started to get back far more than they were giving. They were feeding others, but really, they were being nourished.
I am not going to tell you that all was peachy and the resentment of the past just floated away into nothingness. Or that they fell in love all over again. Or that you should give in order to get back, or with the intention that it will pay off.
Except that it does. Somehow, the giving shapes you. It softens the hard edges and smooths over some of the bumps, just enough to ease things somewhat and open new doors. And I think, too, that small is the new big. We don't have to go big or go home anymore. We just have to go. Just a little. A smile, a sandwich, holding open a door, yielding someone the right of way with a wave. Lots of things count. A little at a time.
I'm not saying its the cure-all. But it sure does get us out of ourselves for a bit. And when we are hurt or hurting, giving, being of service can make all the difference. Quiet. Powerful.
and worth trying.
Monday, August 11, 2014
I recently had the good fortune to spend some time with a colleague of mine who is in well into her senior years. She was talking about her experience over the course of her lifetime in both her private practice and in her personal life. She is healthy, mentally and emotionally and physically, and grateful for all. And she has, too, some regrets. But she carries them with her in a nostalgic tone - and she tells me that even with so much emotional pain during different stages in her life that have come and gone over the years both with her clients and in her own life - that one thing that has always helped her has been to be open to being "in the now" of the good and quiet nature and the universal pace of life.
What she meant by that is this: that even in emotional pain, in anger, anxiety, in grief, in loneliness, there are still moments in the day that are quiet, that are calm, that are accessible. And that perhaps especially in the midst of all the feelings and all the noise in our heads when we are in all the feelings, it is so important to allow all the feelings and then too, it can be so helpful, to just turn our attention to the blue sky, to the warm sun, to the gentle breeze. To just be in the moment, even if for a moment.
It helps us to step out - even if just in our mind - of the circumstance, of our thinking and step into the other part of the story, into the part of life that is just the movement of the day, the nature of life, the gratitude of having air to breathe, clean drinking water, eyes that can read. And to tap into the knowledge that we can make our human efforts to continuously work on and know ourselves, to deepen our consciousness and work better with difficult people and difficult situations but too that being in the now is where we are supposed to be, even when things are confusing, or they hurt. Things pass; they shift. And when we have the idea that we do not always have to be in our thinking or in our feelings, we can get in touch with a quieter, instinctively healthy and calmer voice, a peaceful self and some much needed reprieve and relief.
When we are in pain emotionally time can seem to go so slow. We wait and wait for it to pass, for something new to present itself, for the feelings to lift. And they do, usually, if we let them come and go and if we have the idea that we can't hurry things or push them along, but we can be in the now, and in the "other" now, of the universal nature of living life.
Tuesday, July 22, 2014
Sometimes doing no work at all is doing work.
In the middle of our busy lives, it can seem counter-productive to just stop and do nothing. Many of us do not have the idea that doing nothing is actually doing something. In fact, when I suggest just sitting around, sitting still, and really doing nothing most people tell me that they feel guilty. That they should be doing something. The laundry, the cooking, the bills, the lawn, the closet that needs cleaned out. Something.
But here in the middle of a summer's week, especially, I think, its a good time to just practice doing nothing. Just for a few minutes. Take a quick time out and just be. Don't meditate, or contemplate, or ruminate. Walk away from the electronics and just sit quietly for a few minutes.
It is actually something. It is the practice of just being in the moment, in the day, in your self. It is the work of slowing down, and stepping out, even if just for a moment or two from the daily rush, not just of the busy-ness of the day, but the busy-ness of your mind.
Especially for those who are in some kind of emotional pain, have some kind of decision to make, are confused, feeling lots of feelings at once, or in rapid succession. Just taking a breather can feel like work, it can feel like too much too do, to just sit. But it is the work of taking good care of yourself, the work of leaving your mind alone for a minute or two and that counts. It counts because when you pick back up again you might find that you are somewhat, slightly, subtly, just a bit more able to do what is the next on the never ending list of things to do.
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
We all have so many thoughts all the time, many of which we are not consciously aware of - that is the nature of thought and of the human experience. But understanding how and why we attach ourselves to those thoughts and can go a long way towards influencing our experience of each other, of life, of ourselves.
When a thought or thought pattern comes into our head and we latch on, or start hang gliding on it, we close ourselves off to deeper levels of consciousness, of awareness about what we are thinking, and we close off the possibility of the thoughts and feelings passing without any action having to take place; we shut off the possibility of new, more relaxing, life giving ideas and feelings coming to us.
Deciding to be less attached to each thought or to turn the volume down on our thoughts by looking out for negative thinking patterns and not latching on so fast does not mean dishonoring our emotional pain or checking our brains at the door. It means paying deeper attention to what we are experiencing and being open to letting it breath so that it can pass through if it's meant to pass and to open us back up again to new ideas and new ways of experiencing our world.
It seems too simple at times, to say, lighten up or cheer up or chin up, or to tell yourself a new story. Our old stories have meaning to us, sometimes we don't even know how much meaning they have or how much we believe that they protect us or serve us. We can be afraid to see things differently or to let things go. We can feel very entitled to our feelings, and we may very well be, but it's worth considering that being open to understanding more about how and why we think the way we do, or to letting our feelings and thoughts come, but also go, and not deciding to hang glide on one or two, can be very liberating. The worry train can pull into the station, but we don't always have to get on. We can notice it. We can let it pull out of the station and keep going, and see if a better train pulls in.
You might be surprised at the outcome.
Monday, June 2, 2014
― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars
I'm not totally sure about this one, but it's good grist for the mill. What do you think?
Perhaps in the deep end of emotional pain, it doesn't matter really what, if anything, the pain is worth.
On the other hand, if at least the hurt is worth something, it helps it to be more bearable. If we can feel it, allow it, without acting on it in ways that hurt us or hurt others, if we can name it and say it and know it, and learn something from it, then perhaps it is worth something of value to us.
Not that you would sign up for it, but most people have some kind of pain at some point in life. And if you can get curious about what the fabric of your pain is made of, you often find that there much more to it. Most pain has mixed colors, mixed textures, old and new feelings, patterns, origins. Pain teaches us about what we value, what we need, what we believe. It teaches us to look more deeply at life, and then, to not. To give ourselves a break and a breather.
Sometimes there is not a clear way through. There are lots of good therapies, techniques, principals, methods, theories to help us clear away the blocks to knowing more about ourselves, to changing our state of mind, our not-so-useful-anymore behaviors, our attitudes, our feelings. But when it comes down to it, I think we have to trust our own process, our own innate sense of what we can take in and how we metabolize feelings and ideas.
There is often an urgency associated with pain, understandably, and of course. It can be very hard to tolerate. Anger, frustration, hurt, loneliness, self pity, grief. They can get overwhelming and the urge to "get rid of" or to distance ourselves from those feelings can seem full of charge. But the process of being with ourselves and in our experience and getting through can and does have value if we look for it, and better can and does come, and we can turn around and use that to help ourselves further, and to help others, and that, I'm pretty sure, is worth something.
Monday, May 12, 2014
Sometimes people come in to therapy and they tell me "I shouldn't feel this way." Or "I know I should know better by now." Or "I wish I was not so angry, or hurt or dependent or obsessed."
Whatever feeling it is that is hard to bear, or feels shameful, or frustrating or overwhelming. And especially if that feeling has been around a while and has not been tended to, not been talked about, explored, understood, validated or worked through. And especially if there has been no relief or resolution. And then, even more so, if there is a person connected to that feeling - and that person does not see the effect they have had, or does not understand, self reflect or participate in the healing. And one more especially - especially if that person then blames you, or believes that you are the (only or real) cause of the feeling and the problem.
If difficult feelings sit for too long without being tended to, they tend then, to live in us in ways that cause us more bad feelings, and can effect our emotional, physical and spiritual heath. Sometimes they go underground and then pop up suddenly when we least expect it. Or they lay low, and we know something is wrong, something hurts, or is weighing on us, but we don't quite know what it is.
We feel how we feel. But it doesn't end there, and it shouldn't. Even with the worst of feelings, and in the worst of hurts, there are resources available to us and for us. There are ways to take good care of ourselves, to help our thinking shift and help us out of the bad feelings and into better ones. Even without the participation of the other person, when there is one. Even when we want our bad feelings somehow, even if they keep us connected to something or someone, or are functioning somehow to protect us, there are often ways to use what we feel to give us insight, meaning and progress and help us stop repeating the same internal stress.
Many of our thoughts and feelings are like lightening during the day.... they are there, active, operating, lighting us up, influencing our actions, reactions and choices, but we cannot really see them unless we make a conscious effort to, and to change the way we tend to them.
There are lots of methods for how to do this. There are many different therapies, spiritual paths, systems out there, each with their own approach and appeal. But in one way or another, they all require consciousness of ourselves and willingness to tend to our thoughts, perspectives, beliefs and feelings. It almost doesn't matter which path you walk, so long as you are walking. Wishing not to feel how you feel or having feelings about your feelings is natural, but, but there is more.
There is more to the story and it's good to find out what it is.