― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars
I'm not totally sure about this one, but it's good grist for the mill. What do you think?
Perhaps in the deep end of emotional pain, it doesn't matter really what, if anything, the pain is worth.
On the other hand, if at least the hurt is worth something, it helps it to be more bearable. If we can feel it, allow it, without acting on it in ways that hurt us or hurt others, if we can name it and say it and know it, and learn something from it, then perhaps it is worth something of value to us.
Not that you would sign up for it, but most people have some kind of pain at some point in life. And if you can get curious about what the fabric of your pain is made of, you often find that there much more to it. Most pain has mixed colors, mixed textures, old and new feelings, patterns, origins. Pain teaches us about what we value, what we need, what we believe. It teaches us to look more deeply at life, and then, to not. To give ourselves a break and a breather.
Sometimes there is not a clear way through. There are lots of good therapies, techniques, principals, methods, theories to help us clear away the blocks to knowing more about ourselves, to changing our state of mind, our not-so-useful-anymore behaviors, our attitudes, our feelings. But when it comes down to it, I think we have to trust our own process, our own innate sense of what we can take in and how we metabolize feelings and ideas.
There is often an urgency associated with pain, understandably, and of course. It can be very hard to tolerate. Anger, frustration, hurt, loneliness, self pity, grief. They can get overwhelming and the urge to "get rid of" or to distance ourselves from those feelings can seem full of charge. But the process of being with ourselves and in our experience and getting through can and does have value if we look for it, and better can and does come, and we can turn around and use that to help ourselves further, and to help others, and that, I'm pretty sure, is worth something.